Getting over a death?So, on July 6, 2009, I lost my father in a car crash. He went to the other side of the road and achsred right into a truck. Now, this might be stupid.. but I thought the pain would ease up a bit, you know? I was just hoping for something to numb the pain. I was very close to my father.. and I can't help but feel like it was my fault for his death. You see, he was going to join this caddy tournament, but since the lead guy thought he was apart of this other golf club, they wouldn't let him join. So, I was then suppose to caddy for him when he just went golfing by himself.. and I didn't want to. He didn't wake me up early that day.. I think if I was there with him, I could have grabbed the steering wheel, you know? And of course, me being an idiot.. I decided to look up the article. Yeah, I don't know why I did that. Curiosity killed the cat, as they say.The thing that pains me the most is that for some strange reason.. my mind doesn't want to believe he's dead. Then, eventually, when I think about it, the pain just comes rushing back into my mind. It's just an instant replay of the entire accident. So, I was wondering.. if there was anything I could do to try and cope with his death better.. I can't even play my stupid video games anymore. Like Animal Crossing for example. He had his own house and everything. I can't just erase it.. but I can't play that game anymore. Same with my Zelda games. He was a BIG Zelda fan, and he's beaten all of em. Again, I can't just delete his games. I guess it does give me good memories of me trying to help him beat the game.. but at the same time, it brings me pain. What did some of you guys do to cope with a death? It just feels like no matter how many people are surrounded around me, I still feel alone, you know? I know it'll probably take awhile for this pain to go away, but I just want to know how long it took you guys.